Ego my friend

Ego

Ego my old friend, Welcome!
I have lived under your sweet shadow for so long now!
Life is empty - seems empty without you near.
Your many forms and tricks hold me spellbound;
Your many guises make me powerful yet so weak!
You strive so hard dear Ego to hold me safe;
Yet your safety net suffocates me;
My dreams withering under your watchful eye.

Your power is such you can draw blood at the dawn of a mere possibility ... a warning shot across the bows lest I dare step out from under your shade.
Here I sit dazed in time,
wary of the your powerful tools so well honed and sharpened.

Fear leaves me gasping for breath,
Mere thoughts of my own dissent make my skin crawl and my body ache;
Dare I step too far from your clutches seeking solace where you’ve denied me permission;
Calamities untold play repetitively in my invisible theatre of emotions
bedding in inaction as an unwelcome guest.

Guilt – they shyest friend – so ever present;
Walks with me every given step
Weighing heavy on my shoulders;
Setting onto them terrors of souls bygone.
New responsibilities are laid and created each day; burdening me in even the smallest choice.

Hate so sweet in it’s own disguise
Seeks revenge in even the tiniest slice
Presenting itself wherever love seeds a paradise garden
Leaving giant footprints of a yeti unseen
Denying beauty and purity their right to simply be

Resentment the thief of love once shared;
Steals memories of the sweetest flav;
Leaving acrid smells and acid tastes in it’s wake;
Drowning compassion for it’s own sake

LEAVE NOW I command you;
I am battered black and blue
Playing the games that I thought I once knew
With you, Ego, an old friend sent to keep me safe

Where did I gamble away this friendship so great;
To wake one day with an adversary?

 
I deny you right to own my soul;
And cast out your friends from the very gates they guard
Only love need enter and live here now;
Those shadows of the past remain fond memories of innocents unguided;
Wrapped in silken mists of forgiveness

Release me now Ego from the shadows of your dramas;
Much joy await me where you’ve shown me only pain.
Work awaits me where sweet gardens stand in stillness
To be tended with faith and patience
Laughter awaits where once fear held me back;
So much peace resolves the guilt that never was

Where you once thrilled me with your magic
I now invite in miracles without walls
Miracles of faith and worth beyond dreams that give me strength to hop, skip and sing

Ego my friend of old,
How grey and old you look now!
Where once you wore the shining threads of power
I see only grey shreds of shame

Oh my! You still retain the strength of disguise
A warning to self lest I forget the pain of the past.

Ego my friend I have a heart and love runs through me like an ocean for giving
I give you dignity as your new clothes
You have served me well before I cannot deny
I still love you yet your power is denied

Ego my friend now come and cleanse yourself;
Dress in your new clothes of integrity
Let the world see we have been through the worst and survived
A friendship of old, a battle of our times
Now ended in peace and compassion.

Ego be still
Fear not yourself
The light of love that now shines through me
Has the strength of faith that will carry us both
To lands of dreams where miracles are norm...

Be still my love, my ego,
I have loved you long and faithfully,
Give me your faith now as heavenly love
Guides and guards our flight path
We are safe in stillness
Trust .....
Simply trust
.... lets cherish the NOW we have.